Living Christ

“I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me.”-Proverbs 8:17

Living Christ is living a life that’s far way comparable from living a simple life.  A lot of temptations come along the way, a lot of doubts; fears and everything that could make the weak turn back and run away.  It’s never ordinary, never easy.  But God said, “Be strong and courageous.  Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for I will be with you wherever you go.  I will fight for you, you need only to be still.”  Yes, brothers and sisters, when we thought that we’re doing all the fight, we we’re wrong.  When we have submitted ourselves to Him, He was the one doing all the hard work for us.  That’s how great His love is, that even in Living Him, we just have to stand still and let our faith be bigger than our fears. 

We might have been to a lot of struggles in life, but a strong man living in Christ can still draw an arc on his face.  He can still smile and say that living Christ is living a great and happy life!  For me living in Him is not all about fighting, because as what God had said, He will fight for us.  We just have to have the heart that could appreciate even the tiniest blessing He gives us; the heart that could see and praise Him for His unfailing love for us.

I’m thankful that I Met Christ.  I’m blessed to have a life Living in Christ.  And this kind of life is not meant to be appreciated just by myself.  It is meant to be shared.  Christ is meant to be shared.  I’ve always prayed that all people could just see how beautiful life is when they make God as the center of it.

For those who say they’re poor and cursed God for having such a hard life, I feel pity for all of you.  I myself was not born rich, until now I still am not rich, but I don’t feel poor.  I don’t feel so unlucky having this kind of life.  I’m BLESSED.  And I’ll keep telling that to everyone that I am BLESSED.  Not because I have the riches, but because I have GOD.  I have Him in my life and His better than all the riches in this world, He’s everything.

In Him

 I have been a member of a certain community for more than 9 years now.  For four years, it was solely CFC... but after a crisis in 2007, the community split in two and our province chose to stand as CFC-FFL or the Couples For Christ Foundation for Family and Life.  

For four years straight, way back when I was in high school, I served the Lord fully.  My life totally revolved only in Him and in the community.  I was so full in spirit that I know nothing could ever break me because I have a strong God to back me up.  But those years of Faith slowly faded when I entered college and chose to study in a different province.  My service, my life in the community was like a heart that's having a hard time beating or like a man gasping for breath.  And since then, I was able to see and experience a lot of problem and as each day passed by, I knew in my self that I was weaker.  I was weaker because I have distanced myself from God.

As a typical Catholic, I still attend mass on Sundays.  I still believe in Him, but that's all.  No more convictions... no more burning hearts to serve.  And since then, I was able to see that life was harder, more of struggles I can't seem to bear.  My bright days with God turned out to be walking on the dark road alone... well, that's when I thought I was alone.  Because even though I was inactive in serving God through the community, He never left me.  I knew He never did and he never will.  In those times I was walking in that dark road, he was holding my hands and was leading me to the right track.  God will never let go of me.

And after years of being inactive, God brought in another place where I have to start a new journey after I graduated.  I met new people who were also serving the Lord through CFC-FFL.  And at that time, I knew that it was another blessing God gave me.  I knew that all along, He was guiding me to go back to Him and embrace Him again.  

From then on, I knew that my life will surely turn to the way it was before.  A life that God have always wanted for me.  A life full of hope and a life with a heart burning in full desire to serve the Lord.  My heart was hungry for love... longing to serve Him again.  And all I could say is that I miss this life.  I miss everything I had in high school.  I may not be with the same faces, but I am with the kind of people whose hearts are hungry to serve Him.  People who were able Meet Christ and believes that it doesn't just end in knowing Him.  People who believes that there's a greater challenge in Living Christ.  And people who accepted the mission in Sharing Christ to everyone.  I am blessed having met these kind of persons.

I'll always pray, that from now on, I will always have the strength to never let go of Him.  Because in Him, I know I can do anything.  In Him, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.  In Him, I am BLESSED.

I Declare

I had dinner with my friends last night.  It's funny how the time just went by so fast that now we're not students anymore.  We all had our own job and earn our own money.  We can buy stuffs we want... although not really for me.  I can't actually buy all stuffs I want.  It's never easy for me specially that among the three of us, I have the lowest salary rate.  And honestly, I have to admit this, I've never been this jealous all my life.

You see, my envy to those people who can easily afford to buy those material things this world can offer just grew bigger.  And I have always admitted it to myself that I am jealous... very jealous of them.  I know material things are not the only reason to be happy.  Sometimes it even makes me wonder of what's wrong with my life?  Even taxi drivers and those who earn less than mine own nicer gadgets.  I sometimes feel so a shame of myself and feel so little in a crowd.  I feel so insignificant.

I kept asking myself, why?  Why don't I own a nice pair of shoes, expensive dresses and latest gadgets?  Why I wasn't at other people's shoe?  So a lot of whys... and later did I realize that everything I'm thinking was so wrong from the start.

I know for myself that I could buy those stuffs, only that those were not the things I really wanted, what my heart really wanted.  God knows... he's been with me.  I wasn't even saving to buy things... I was saving to travel somewhere God needed my presence.  Yes, I was jealous for nothing.  For me, those memories of serving HIM is beyond compare.  It will live in me forever, unlike those material things that depreciates so fast with time.  But memories accumulates... its never gonna be impaired.  It will always stay with me, in my mind and in my heart.

I confess I was jealous... but I've learned my mistake.  This worldly things might give me joy, but it will all be temporary.  God never failed me in my decisions.  He always has the answer to all my doubts.  Now I declare to not be taken with all the material things, they will just come to me at the right time.  I will let my Faith be Bigger than this jealousy I feel.  I will wait and trust HIM cause He know, what my hearts true desires are.