In Him

 I have been a member of a certain community for more than 9 years now.  For four years, it was solely CFC... but after a crisis in 2007, the community split in two and our province chose to stand as CFC-FFL or the Couples For Christ Foundation for Family and Life.  

For four years straight, way back when I was in high school, I served the Lord fully.  My life totally revolved only in Him and in the community.  I was so full in spirit that I know nothing could ever break me because I have a strong God to back me up.  But those years of Faith slowly faded when I entered college and chose to study in a different province.  My service, my life in the community was like a heart that's having a hard time beating or like a man gasping for breath.  And since then, I was able to see and experience a lot of problem and as each day passed by, I knew in my self that I was weaker.  I was weaker because I have distanced myself from God.

As a typical Catholic, I still attend mass on Sundays.  I still believe in Him, but that's all.  No more convictions... no more burning hearts to serve.  And since then, I was able to see that life was harder, more of struggles I can't seem to bear.  My bright days with God turned out to be walking on the dark road alone... well, that's when I thought I was alone.  Because even though I was inactive in serving God through the community, He never left me.  I knew He never did and he never will.  In those times I was walking in that dark road, he was holding my hands and was leading me to the right track.  God will never let go of me.

And after years of being inactive, God brought in another place where I have to start a new journey after I graduated.  I met new people who were also serving the Lord through CFC-FFL.  And at that time, I knew that it was another blessing God gave me.  I knew that all along, He was guiding me to go back to Him and embrace Him again.  

From then on, I knew that my life will surely turn to the way it was before.  A life that God have always wanted for me.  A life full of hope and a life with a heart burning in full desire to serve the Lord.  My heart was hungry for love... longing to serve Him again.  And all I could say is that I miss this life.  I miss everything I had in high school.  I may not be with the same faces, but I am with the kind of people whose hearts are hungry to serve Him.  People who were able Meet Christ and believes that it doesn't just end in knowing Him.  People who believes that there's a greater challenge in Living Christ.  And people who accepted the mission in Sharing Christ to everyone.  I am blessed having met these kind of persons.

I'll always pray, that from now on, I will always have the strength to never let go of Him.  Because in Him, I know I can do anything.  In Him, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.  In Him, I am BLESSED.